Aysar grow up TWO fast

Alhamdulilahhhh

Happy birthday to youuuu 

Happy birthday to Aysar

Happy birthday to youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu....

Alhamdulilah

Allah selamatkan kamuuu

Allah selamatkan kamuuu

Allah selamatkan Muhamad 'Izz Aysar

Allah selamatkan kamuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu....

Yayyy! hahahhahaa 

Happy two years old to my precious son.

My harta rezki dunia akhirat.

May all the goodness and success be with Aysar the whole life in the world and hereafter.

May Allah always keep Aysar with His protection fiddunnya walakhirah aminn...

We celebrate your birthday at The Ha-ven Resort Ipoh on 25 February 2023

Alhamdulilah.

May Allah protect each one of us.. aminnn

 

Oh Allah, I submit myself to You.

I realize that parenting a child is a very difficult task and I turn to You in humility for Your help.

I implore You for Your wisdom and guidance.

Oh Allah, I know that our children are an amanah (trust) from You, to care for and to raise in a manner that is pleasing to You.

Help me walk in righteousness and integrity so that You may always be pleased with me.

Oh Allah, I pray for a close, loving, happy and fulfilling relationship with them for all the days of our lives and to be reunited with them in Jannat ul Firdaus.

ameennnn....

Tetamu Allah 3.0 - Duyufurrahman

 Assalamualaikum..

Okey lets continue with umrah story. After 5 days staying at Madinah, we went to Mekah by Train and arrived Mekah around 2am.. I still remember my body feel soooo cold and uncomfortable. I don’t realise that actually Im having a high fever. I was very weak. But I need to be strong bcus I already niat ihram in the train. We decided to check in hotel to put our luggage and ready for the first umrah at 3 am which is before subuh time. So, me and all the Jemaah from this agent walk to Masjidilharam and start to tawaf. Aysar was so sleepy that time bcus should be his sleep time. He quite uneasy around the crowd but we managed to finish the tawaf. Okey after finish tawaf, I tell my husband I really feel weak and wanna pee pee(really tak tahan). So, my family and my small fam split out bcus I wanna go pee pee (which is toilet is so far from masjid. We need to go out of this masjid). After done, we get our wudhuk and want to go inside masjid, little that we didn’t know when its about time for subuh, they will split the woman and man area. 

This time is the start of “missing”. We split our way. I have no phone battery and does my husband too. Alif carried Aysar and left me in the woman area. After few moment, I thinking I cannot stay here alone because this masjid is so huge and I don’t know how to go back.. Subuh is almost like 45mins to go. So I decided to sneak out the partition and run to other side which I don’t know where. Sorry not sorry, I was late…. The escalator to went down is closed. I’m stuck at level 1 which I cannot go to the area where I have promised to my husband to meet there. I’m becoming weaker as the fever getting higher. No one there… I was alone asking for Allah help.. until I was asleep infront of air zam zam area.. I awake hearing for azan subuh and shocked the area was full with people where just now is just me only. I took wuduk again using air zam zam behind there and solat Jemaah subuh.

After done subuh, the escalator to go down is open, I went down and searched for my husband at our ‘promised area’ but he was not there.. I waited for quite some time….. I was confused and tired (which actually I sick). I made a decision to complete my umrah as I was still In ihram… I asked people how to go Saie at safa – Marwah… I thinking I can meet my family or other Jemaah there as they still haven’t finish saie yet. So I walked to bukit Marwah while looking at the beautiful Kaabah.. I grateful, I know I not alone, Allah is always with me wherever I goes…

As soon as arrived Bukit Marwah. I seat at the stairs while looking at all the people all over the world.. while waiting for anyone I know.. suddenly, I saw a group of kakak kakak from the same agent. I quickly run to them and said I was ‘missing’ alone.. and they all know I was missing as my mom is also looking for me… They said ‘Jom start niat saie from here at least I finish I round of saie. Because my family is at Bukit Safa there… I walked slowly with them. They were holding my hand left and right.. I was exhausted and sick. I cried the whole time while walking with them. I said im tired cannot walk anymore……

Until almost arrived Bukit Safa.. I saw my mom from afar.. I got a strength to walk fast to her and huggsss mama while crying “mamaaaa ili demammmmmm,………. Tak larat…………..Alif n aysar hilang tatau pergi manaa… ili sesat….” huwaaaaa I cried so hard. My bro tells me Alif go back hotel send Aysar to sleep… Alif was so worried thinking of me… I asked him how you know. They actually terserempak at other side when Alif going out the masjid…Alhamdulilah my heart feels easy after hearing the news… I started to go for second round of saie with my mom.. we walk together.. I was very weak.. im actually pull by mama to walk. If not, I will just stand or seat on the floor.. Totally exhausted… After finish second round I saw my husband coming to me.. He was so worried and lega seeing me with mama already..  We walk together left by husband (no wudhuk need during saie) and right by mama.

Alif hold me tight which actually I cannot really feel the floor on my feet.. The story of Siti Ajar and his son came across my mind.. How hard to finish this struggle… There are few times I asked them to stop by to rest and drink zam zam water… Until we finish the 7 round saie. Alhamdulilahh…. We walk and tell the agent I barely to walk, they bring me wheelchair to the hotel…. Arrived hotel I sleep until zohor and decided to rest at hotel.. I went to masjid maghrib isya.. which actually I continue sleep at masjid after solat maghrib.. and Jemaah isya and only go back to hotel.. the first and two days in Mekah was hard for me.. I believe Allah want to get rid all my sins through the hardship that I went through.. Alhamdulilah I grateful for the test that Allah given me. 

The next next day is fine as I getting better and can do umrah and ibadah with happy and feel so healthy. Alhamdulilah. I learnt a lot from what I went through during my time at Mekah and Madinah.. I pray taubat a lot.. asking forgiveness to Allah for all my wrongdoings… I really hope that Allah get rid all my sins and accept all my good deeds and shower me with His rahmah and blessing.. My life is to please Allah.. I put all my hope and my way is only because of Allah. 

My momma love u so muchhh

me and my baby

Bagi anak air zam zam bior terang hatinya nak ngaji al quran aminnn.. hehehe

me and myself

Shooping kurmaaa

May Allah bless us

May Allah accept all our ibadah and put us among the people He pleased.. aminn..

May Allah be pleased with us keep us steadfast. May he make us among the righteous who are protected and guided. ameennn...

O Allah, give us good in this world and protect us in the afterlife.

Only Allah can return all the goodness of people around me.

May Allah shower them with His blessing.. aminnnn

Tetamu Allah 2.0 - Duyufurrahman 2022

 Alhamdulilah.. lets continueee throwback memories in Mekah and Madinah last year. I don’t know how to start. Let see the pictures first hahahaha. We go travel under agent Al-Muk-mi-nin travel after study and comparing to other agents. The most affordable with complete packages, I guess.

I glad can help to arrange and handle all the things with the agent and my family as the PIC in charge for this trip. I'm satisfied and grateful.

Alhamdulilah.

We went to Madinah first and after 5 days only we went to Mekah for umrah. At first, i told the agent want to go to Mekah for Umrah first but the plan changed last minutes and i quite upset but redha with His arrangement. we went to madinah first. Alhamdulilah. Madinah is such a calm place where we can can visit our Prophet Muhammad and Raudhah.

Only Allah knows the feeling when we were got to enter Raudhah and visit Maqam Rasullulah. The feeling is unexplainable. Especially during our queu to Raudhah. They check our Nusuk apps. phewww so long que but we managed to go very very fasts.. and the feeling when you enter Raudhah Taman Taman syurga.. MasyaAllah.........Alhamdulillah Allah made it easy for us.

Madinah yang tenang, kami benar benar rindu..

Balik semyang isya :)

ootd with telekung ahahahahhaha

ma.. best momma in law ever...

suami soleh sy baju koko gelap tu.. hehe

selfiee lepas subuh di madinah yg tenang

selfiee sikittt . 

My sweetheartssss

My cheeky boy niiiii.. eiiiiii gerammm tauuu! goodboi sgt hahahha

momma and her forever bestieeee.. makngah sayang..

The whole family for this trp. alhmadulilahh..

Cucu kesayangan atok opah niii.... muahx3 hehehhe

 

Tetamu Allah - Duyufurrahman 2022

Assalamualaikum.. alhamdulilah syukur.. we were blessed to be Duyufurrahman for Umrah 2022 with my family and in law family. Its such a blessing and wonderful experience to be with my family to the most holy place in the world. Allhamdulilah. The best experience ever to be here with my own small family too..

 Aysar is 1 year and 7month++ when we were blessed to be there.. He is such a blessing and rezki. Bringing him to mekah and Madinah had been easy for us even he still considered as a baby. Alhamdulilah Allah made it easy for us. Let throwback some of the pictures when we were there as a memories! Hehe

How lovely is it <3

Allhamdulilah my family

Allah bless my parents aminnn

My syurga.. May Allah bless us as husband and wife until syurga aminn

My small family.

My little soleh boy

Haji kecil

Semoga Aysar membesar sihat bijak pandai soleh faham Al quran dan menyebarkan agama Allah aminnn....

My mom.. my whole heart

Let continue next entry for more picture hahhahaha..

Masters Degree Holder

Alhamdulilahh alhamdulilahhhh alhamdulilahhhh segala puji bagi Allah tuhan semestar alam, pemilik seluruh makhluk dan alam semestar....

Syukur ke hadrat Allah dengan limpah dan kurniaNYA dapat ili marshitah menghabiskan masters dengan jayanya alhamdulilahhhh...

(eh tiberrr bahasa malayyyyy ahaksss)

Alhamdulilahh all thanks to my husband, parents, lecturers and friends for guidance and helps along the way to finish this master journey. Truly, it is not easy. Doing study when you already working is not easy, not much fun, tired and difficult because the momentum for you to study and do the assignment is not like old good days during uni years where all of your friends are doing the same as yours. It is more fun, happy and excited during that day. This time im with some of my few close friends that  made me feel better and strong to do this. alhmdulilah this is all Allah's plan.

All the struggle paid off. We managed to finish it on time. I will always cherish and remember our masters day where we all rush to class like 2-3 times a week and everyone look tired and exhausted bcus we all just finished working for one day and need to use our brain to absorb knowledges and get ready with our presentation and all.

I enjoyed every moments with my classmates, they are all awesome. We are from different background and sharing with each other expertise and ideas!

May all my friends success fid dunya wal akhirah aminnn..

So here the day came on 14 September 2022. The graduation ceremony! Finally happened after like 2 years of graduated. Alhamdulilah. very happy can meet all my classmate and take photos together. Also, making my parents feel happy and proud for having someone like me. Indeed, they are my strong pillar. my BIG WHY.....

Grateful i can take graduation photos with my son! He was in my tummy right after i submitted my final paper. He must be there in my tummy for 1 months actually but seriously i didnt notice any. Maybe bcus i was too focus and stress thinking about my dissertation. Im just fine until i submitted the paper and do the pregnancy test! oh it positive! HAHAHAHHA

and i dont know howwww.. the symptom was started exactly after we found out !

I cannot resist i really like to thrown up.. vomit, not feeling well and all...

Subhanallah, amazing how Allah's plan works..

He let me finish my paper first only the symptom appears..

So, that the story hahaha lets enjoy the graduation day!

ALHAMDULILAH

ALL PRAISE TO ALLAH

Remember that this is not the highest or the pure success.

The highest success is when u reach the strong iman and takwa to get the Jannah.

The true successs is when you enter the Jannah

The forever success.

Let us aim high to achieve Allah's redha and rahmah

With His love and mercy is the only way to enter Jannah

Pleasing Allah by increase your ibadah and takwa :)

Insha Allah...

May Allah ease our way fiddunya wal akhirah.. aminnn