Assalamualaikum..
Okey lets continue with umrah story. After 5 days staying at Madinah, we went to Mekah by Train and arrived Mekah around 2am.. I still remember my body feel soooo cold and uncomfortable. I don’t realise that actually Im having a high fever. I was very weak. But I need to be strong bcus I already niat ihram in the train. We decided to check in hotel to put our luggage and ready for the first umrah at 3 am which is before subuh time. So, me and all the Jemaah from this agent walk to Masjidilharam and start to tawaf. Aysar was so sleepy that time bcus should be his sleep time. He quite uneasy around the crowd but we managed to finish the tawaf. Okey after finish tawaf, I tell my husband I really feel weak and wanna pee pee(really tak tahan). So, my family and my small fam split out bcus I wanna go pee pee (which is toilet is so far from masjid. We need to go out of this masjid). After done, we get our wudhuk and want to go inside masjid, little that we didn’t know when its about time for subuh, they will split the woman and man area.
This time is the start of “missing”. We split our way. I have no phone battery and does my husband too. Alif carried Aysar and left me in the woman area. After few moment, I thinking I cannot stay here alone because this masjid is so huge and I don’t know how to go back.. Subuh is almost like 45mins to go. So I decided to sneak out the partition and run to other side which I don’t know where. Sorry not sorry, I was late…. The escalator to went down is closed. I’m stuck at level 1 which I cannot go to the area where I have promised to my husband to meet there. I’m becoming weaker as the fever getting higher. No one there… I was alone asking for Allah help.. until I was asleep infront of air zam zam area.. I awake hearing for azan subuh and shocked the area was full with people where just now is just me only. I took wuduk again using air zam zam behind there and solat Jemaah subuh.
After done subuh, the escalator to go down is open, I went down and searched for my husband at our ‘promised area’ but he was not there.. I waited for quite some time….. I was confused and tired (which actually I sick). I made a decision to complete my umrah as I was still In ihram… I asked people how to go Saie at safa – Marwah… I thinking I can meet my family or other Jemaah there as they still haven’t finish saie yet. So I walked to bukit Marwah while looking at the beautiful Kaabah.. I grateful, I know I not alone, Allah is always with me wherever I goes…
As soon as
arrived Bukit Marwah. I seat at the stairs while looking at all the people all
over the world.. while waiting for anyone I know.. suddenly, I saw a group of
kakak kakak from the same agent. I quickly run to them and said I was ‘missing’
alone.. and they all know I was missing as my mom is also looking for me… They
said ‘Jom start niat saie from here at least I finish I round of saie. Because
my family is at Bukit Safa there… I walked slowly with them. They were holding my
hand left and right.. I was exhausted and sick. I cried the whole time while
walking with them. I said im tired cannot walk anymore……
Until almost arrived Bukit Safa.. I saw my mom from afar.. I got a strength to walk fast to her and huggsss mama while crying “mamaaaa ili demammmmmm,………. Tak larat…………..Alif n aysar hilang tatau pergi manaa… ili sesat….” huwaaaaa I cried so hard. My bro tells me Alif go back hotel send Aysar to sleep… Alif was so worried thinking of me… I asked him how you know. They actually terserempak at other side when Alif going out the masjid…Alhamdulilah my heart feels easy after hearing the news… I started to go for second round of saie with my mom.. we walk together.. I was very weak.. im actually pull by mama to walk. If not, I will just stand or seat on the floor.. Totally exhausted… After finish second round I saw my husband coming to me.. He was so worried and lega seeing me with mama already.. We walk together left by husband (no wudhuk need during saie) and right by mama.
Alif hold me tight which actually I cannot really feel the floor on my feet.. The story of Siti Ajar and his son came across my mind.. How hard to finish this struggle… There are few times I asked them to stop by to rest and drink zam zam water… Until we finish the 7 round saie. Alhamdulilahh…. We walk and tell the agent I barely to walk, they bring me wheelchair to the hotel…. Arrived hotel I sleep until zohor and decided to rest at hotel.. I went to masjid maghrib isya.. which actually I continue sleep at masjid after solat maghrib.. and Jemaah isya and only go back to hotel.. the first and two days in Mekah was hard for me.. I believe Allah want to get rid all my sins through the hardship that I went through.. Alhamdulilah I grateful for the test that Allah given me.
The next next day is fine as I getting better and can do umrah and ibadah with happy and feel so healthy. Alhamdulilah. I learnt a lot from what I went through during my time at Mekah and Madinah.. I pray taubat a lot.. asking forgiveness to Allah for all my wrongdoings… I really hope that Allah get rid all my sins and accept all my good deeds and shower me with His rahmah and blessing.. My life is to please Allah.. I put all my hope and my way is only because of Allah.
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May Allah accept all our ibadah and put us among the people He pleased.. aminn..
May Allah be pleased with us keep us steadfast. May he make us among the righteous who are protected and guided. ameennn...
O Allah, give us good in this world and protect us in the afterlife.
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