Confused fuseee

Assalamulaikum peopleeee,

Hi ! Right now im at Sastria Hotel SP as there are shit happened. Waiting for my family to come back from KL until sunday as my acu goes to Mekah for Hajj. May Allah protect him & his wife. aminnnn... okey back to the purposes of this entry which is dilemaaaa... im currently at the turning point of my life to be what i want to be, how my life goes & why it be like that???? I'm really damn confuseddd.. help meeeeeeeeeee............ you knowww adulting is hard :( hmm....

okey actually like this. on 29 June 2018. im telling my boss that im not going to do PA session with him as i want to pursue my masters degree on september. then on 9 july i gave my resign letter. At that moments, i felt so relieved as the decision look firm & waiting for my last day of emloyment. Suddently Boss (CEO) called me on 15 of July Boss to discuss in his room. He is so gentle damn nice person. The way he advised, listening & telling his opinion really make you think twice about what you want to do with your life. im telling him that i want to be a lecturer one day. That why im want to pursue my master's degree. He also asked me to check it out USM if there any courses offer that same with ICPM in shah alam. There youuu goooo... the best part is he offering me flexible working hourrrrr..... whatt ?? im damn suprised ! so im back homeee & feeling so confused with my lifeeee........ that night i slept early & didnt do any survey about USM yet....

The next day, Kak Zura gave me a very clear motivation & advises on what life should be, how you wanr it to be & some opinion on how working life & so many moreee... im more confused after that.... Then, that evening i surveyed about USM website & called postgraduete centre at School of Housing, Building & Planning. Unfortunately, the application date is just closed on 15 July but the admin said i still can apply until end of July for local student. Im relieved... butttt the class is at working hourrrr & no classes during weekend or night. There youuu goooo... im down to earth back.... i said to my family that i dont want to tell boss about the USM. as it will be too much if i get flexi working hour which is way too much. Beore this i thought flexi in term of back home early like just 30 mins like that... haha -,-


Danggggg...!! Suprised happened... Bos (HOD) called me to seat on 17 July. He want to followed up after his brother talked to me. He informed that our company has J Foundation to get scholarship which is actually for the purposes of pursue study & etc. But still until now, no one used the benefit. He also told that he can considered the schedule first with management team regarding my studies. im very shocked ! What did i do to deserve this ?? im so thankfull yet nervoussss ... hahahhaa... Of courses mom & dad are so glad about the news ! im beyond thankfull.. so next week i have to tell boss that we will see how.... it mean we can do give & take agreement before final decision are made. Lets see how life bring us....

im so nervousss....

Lets pray for the bestt ! aminnnnnnnnnn...

Semoga ili marshitah jadi pensyarah satu hari nantii.. aminnnnnnnn............